I was invited to a Christmas party that I'm not going to go to. I planned on it, but I didn't have the motivation to go. Being with people is exhausting. I went to a Christmas lunch yesterday, too many expectations to eat food, to talk to people about nothing. I don't really want to do it again tonight. So I stayed home and watched Trains, Planes & Automobiles and The Star Wars Holiday Special.
I spent Sunday regaining the closets. My closet space is, oddly, tripled due to closet space that was going entirely unused. I like that when I make a mess, or stop a project in the middle, it doesn't get worse without my knowledge.
I don't think I was intended to live with other humans.
I want next year to be over. 2016 is a test year, a waste of time to set a benchmark. I keep doing things I probably shouldn't, justifying them as a change I'll make when I find out what things look like. They look like you spending money you don't quite know that you have on the grounds that you don't know what the year looks like, yet. I mean, I *have* it, I just don't know if it would have been better spent some other way yet.
No. I'm spending money on things that make me happy. What's it for if not for that?
I just want to make it through to May. In May, I'll see what I know.
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