I've Got the Power?

Talking to a random stranger on the Internet tonight who decided that I was a gregarious, outgoing individual.  Since he was a random Internet stranger, I would have dismissed this entirely but for the fact that I'm finding that, compared to normal people, I am.  

I used to believe that I hated people, I wanted to be left alone.  And this is true, I am an introvert, I need time away from people.  People exhaust me.  

A friend cancelled plans with me today, and I didn't feel relieved.  I talked to a friend online I haven't spoken to in a while, and told them I missed them, and realised it was true.  I miss people.  

I typed that last sentence and then deleted it, because I don't miss people.  But I think that's the difference.  I don't miss people, I miss the idea of one person.  And it's not him I miss, it's that relationship.  I missed it when I was in the relationship with him.  

I miss the feel of someone else.  I miss touch and trust and everything that the combination of those two things can mean.  

I tried so hard not to.