Whenever I have a job interview, or a really good posting pops up, I let my boss know. Every time, she says the same thing, "I don't want to lose you, but you do you."
We have had countless conversations about how this position does not allow me to live. Like, not just, "oh, doesn't pay for me to go out like a fancy person all the time," but, "I will very soon be in the place where I'm forgoing food because my expenses will be too great, unless something changes." I don't know how much more clearly I can say, "If you don't want to lose me, you don't actually have to, fight for me to be full time." Full time at my current rate would save me. I wouldn't be exactly saving, but I wouldn't be short money every month unless I'm very careful, which is the current situation.
So I have to find something else. Hundreds of people apply for positions. I can't find anything. I apply.
I'm feeling rejected and unwanted in every single aspect of my life. Why even bother?
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