Precedence

It's a good thing I occasionally re-read emails when I'm awake.

Not House Manager.  If I know where to FIND a House Manager.  And Board Members.  Kinda.

I have been and gone and had adventures and this always makes me question my life.

My life is mostly not adventures.  So are most people's.  I forget that.  Most people also do the dishes and take out the dog and wonder how they're going to plan their week.

"What are you most looking forward to?"
I begin to think of all the things I want to do next time.
"Internet.  No, you gave that up pretty easy."
Oh.  Looking forward to at home.  Why am I going home?  Because it's the best universe I've managed to construct on my own.  Because it's the best I can do.  Because there is unfinished business, and obligations, and steps in a direction that might be right in terms of a career, or maybe I need to write the weird and strange shit that is pent up in my head but isn't a story.  Not yet.  Because it's still my story, and I carry my messes with me.

Everywhere I go, I'm already waiting for myself there.