In Which I Fail at Everything Including My Gender, Somehow

There's a video going around right now that all women are supposed to relate to, with ten things that happen to all women, and women I follow on Twitter are consistently posting that they've experienced 8-10 of these things.  Been drugged, molested, known someone who's been drugged, etc.  I don't know specifically if any of my female friends have ever been roofied, so I'm sitting at 0.  Like, as the video suggests strongly, a guy.  (I understand that men of all ages do experience physical, mental and sexual abuse.  Absolutely.  That's not the conversation.) 

I love feeling rejected by my own gender.  It's great.  Like, "Oh, you haven't undergone abuse at the hands of men, I guess you're part of the problem."  And it tells me there's something different and wrong and "not like all girls" about me.  That no one has even taken enough interest in me to objectify me, or something.  I used to get a little sanctimonious about it, because, hey, this hasn't happened to me, none of this has, what the heck is wrong with the rest of you that you allowed it, that you endured it?  And I got told time and again that this isn't supporting women and believing women and can you tell from this conversation that it's still absolutely separating ME from other people?  Soooo.  Now it's just alienating.  I can't be a woman who hasn't been abused, so what the fuck am I? 

I'm not feeling super good about who I am, at the moment, anyway.  I don't see a lot of opportunities to ever find another relationship, because I am intolerable.  I don't eat, I don't buy a bunch of useless shit nobody needs, I don't find value in... much of anything, actually.  I have a job I will never, ever get out of, and I am sick and tired of other people. 

All of my regular human interaction that isn't Dungeons and Dragons is phoning up people with problems.  I am OVER other people's problems.  I have my own, and they are me, and I can't fix that, so why am I bothering with everybody fucking else?  I can't even get dogs right. 

Friends of mine have a mutual friend who they introduced to me saying, "You two will either love each other or hate each other," asserting that we are basically the same person.  And the reality of this is that she is an unreliable, moderately talented person with an incredibly inflated opinion of herself who consistently burns bridges with people.  And.  Well.